About the time that my son had made it to one year, I published my latest post, #365, a year’s worth. Took me three years. The last year felt like three in some ways and like three minutes in some ways.
As I write now, my window is open and I hear kids playing in the park across the way, yelping, having fun, joyful. The days here in Oregon are long now, approaching the start of Summer. I wonder which of these kids will be friends with my son when he stops hypercrawling and starts running around and talking. So many beautiful and fun moments coming up. With a child the moments are a mix of his present and my past, making a tea of nostalgia and hope that warms my soul like nothing I have known.
In the last year (or so) I have married my truest friend, watched my son shoot through a star and into my arms, gone bankrupt, been sued twice by the same person (unsuccessfully) (?)(!), been chased down by a bank and the IRS, paid the last of a sorrowful divorce payment, seen my kid have an operation, did my first tree pose in yoga, traveled to Maui with a patient wife and wiggly 9 month old (don’t do this willingly, seriously), cut off relations with a person once close to me, opened my heart to many others, taken some of my best photographs and finished a years worth of blog posts. I own almost nothing – not a car that I don’t owe money one, not a house, not a business that isn’t awash in debt. I own two cameras, some lights, this computer, some furniture.
My heart is full. I am loved by many and love many, more all the time. My goal in this blog was to share with you my daily, sometimes excruciating, journey from my head to my heart. I celebrate both and they are friends – my head and heart.
I am going to be looking to make a book out of this. Any suggestions are welcome. I, like my son in the swing today, an hour ago, am looking forward. He cackled as I pushed him back and forth, just here and now. The photo, at first made me think of writing about the future, but the moment is now and it is so good, right now. Thank you for reading me. Please share this blog with other people you know who might be wondering what the path between the head and the heart looks like. It looks like this.