Category Archives: Bend Light

See Through You

I trust peo­ple I should not trust. Not always, and not as much as I did ear­lier in my life and not nearly as often and not for as long, but I still do it. Some­thing in me believes that … Con­tinue read­ing

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Spring in Chicago: Robert

I had finally got­ten to Chicago and the light was fail­ing and I sat down for a minute. Robert sat beside me and it was a bustling bar. He was watch­ing Bay­lor play in the final four. Their uni­forms were … Con­tinue read­ing

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Bear Two Ways, Two

Last night we went and floated in tanks of water that had 850 pounds of salt dis­solved in them. The water, the air in the tank and appar­ently my skin were all at 95 degrees F. It was black dark, lasted … Con­tinue read­ing

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Bear Two Ways, One

I am turn­ing a cir­cle around an ursine cir­cle. How is a bear in this cir­cle with his ass to the high side of Bend, OR? She just is, and 8th street flanks her frontside and she is eter­nally in … Con­tinue read­ing

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The Place in Me

Qui­eter than the end­ing of the night when the gray­ing of the black and the gray­ing of the light meet and it’s dawn; qui­eter than the end­ing cir­cuit of the tires on snow after the engine is cut and the … Con­tinue read­ing

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1 2 3 4

Dur­ing an oper­a­tion, the pulse is counted on a the beep­ing machine in the back­ground. 1 2 3 4. Nor­mal is 60 – 80. A mil­lion things can change the pulse. My heart quick­ens when she walks by, for instance. Dur­ing an oper­a­tion, … Con­tinue read­ing

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V.

I have on my desk a photo of the daugh­ters (7, 12) of the 29 year old woman who I ordered the fatal dose of mor­phine for when the pain of her colon can­cer rode up on her like the wild … Con­tinue read­ing

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It Goes Fast, One Second At A Time

The dif­fer­ence between what I make up is real and what is real…is unknown to me.

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Fashion Rocks, or…Green

It turns out that the world really does look like this. Every­day when my friends in Maui turn off their neigh­bor­hood road they are con­fronted with this view. Stun­ning, espe­cially with the power lines and the houses and the per­fect … Con­tinue read­ing

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Forge Ahead

I have been up all night, mostly. I miss you all. My last foray to the ER was a call about a bar fight in the park­ing lot at 3am. I passed the bar on the way to the hos­pi­tal … Con­tinue read­ing

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